You are not my friend that I've known before!

I had this guy friend in my high school years who is very "kalog", funny. talkative, tack less and very kind. I always treated him as my "kuya". When I enter our room (I'm a sophomore at that time) he's the only one who approached me of all the students who are talking there. The approach was good that it made me feel comfortable around. He was asking like, "You're so familiar, have met before?". Gee, it's a small world after all we were classmate since elementary and I don't remember him at all. So, he introduced me to his friends. His friends became my friends already. We ate lunch together, we laugh, we shared life experiences. When I reached my junior years, we were doing all the crazy stuff in this world. So many intrigues, issues...but then the friendship never broke. There was a time that we have an open forum, we share all the "hinanakit" that we felt to our friends. It actually lead to the discussions of our future (careers). The guy and I planned to take the same course because we have the same interest. After saying all the careers that we want one of my friend said, "thetz, basin mag usab naka ha nya dili naka managa namo kung ma reporter naka!" I've been keeping that words to my mind. And I'm afraid that one day as I journey my life, I may change. "United we stand, Divided we fall." that's our motto in my senior years. We are really divided into groups with different personalities, attitude and views in life. My friends and I made a promise to each other that if we reached in college, we still communicate. Yeah! communicate is important!

"Thetz asa naman ka?" My guy friend texted me many times. It was the first day of school (college years). And yes. we pursue the plan that we made before. We were taking the same course and guess what? were not classmate! That was the most embarrassing moment in my first day of school. Walking alone in the lobby, sitting with unknown people in the bench and strangers everywhere.....oh God help me! Day by day. I'm already used to it. The "koleheyala girl" as what they called it. Years have passed, there is something that is different about him. At first, I thought it was just normal, but then again it's not.

He was minding his life and I also did. He has his friends and I have mine too. I really don't know if his aware or what. As what I have observed, he's adopting or shall we say influenced from his new peers. And I just can't talk to him like, "Hey! is that you?" because things were really different before. There was a time that I get jealous about him because of his friends. And the moment we see each other, I just stared at him. His friends were fashionista so as he. And I will not change my personality just to fit in their criteria. That's not me! If were friends, you've got to accept me for who I am not of what I have. I really don't know if he's changing or what maybe I change or the both of us? I know him better than he know and he also know me better than I know. I was hesitant to approach him because I know in the end I will loose. He has a different perception in his life right now and i can't rebut on that because it may lead to a misunderstanding. He already hurt me twice but he's not aware about it. Every time I speak, he will judge me! He's very competitive in terms of his studying, even though he will say he's not, but it shows. Whenever I'm in school, I just remained quiet. I only talk if he ask questions. There's already a gap between the both of us. He said he is willing to give up all the thing he possess. And the next day, he told me he want to buy this one and that one. Do you really mean what are you saying? I'm not the antagonist here, i wonder why he's acting like this. He's really not my friend that I've known before.

I admit I changed but my attitude is there very intact! I've been through the levels of maturity and it's not easy. I'm glad that my circles of friends are there and very understandable. I'm happy that somehow I was changed (the good ones) for the good of others and at the same time for myself. I value life and I don't argue about it. I'm still who I am.

How about him? I guess he also has changes in life. Yeah he did, I noticed it. I hope he will understand me the moment he will read this. I write because I observed there's something wrong. And don't think that I hate you or I feel hatred about you. I'm just concern as a friend. I don't question how you handle your life. You just have to think a million times before you talk. because you might know that there's someone out there who get hurt by your words and actions. And oh, by the way, who am I to judge your life? I'm only your friend anyways!

My name, what does it mean?...

I am usually the best at everything ... I strive for perfection. I am confident, authoritative, and aggressive. I have the classic "Type A" personality.

I am very intuitive and wise. I understand the world better than most people.I also have a very active imagination. I often get carried away with your thoughts.I am prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. I sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

I am friendly, charming, and warm. I get along with almost everyone.I work hard not to rock the boat. My easy going attitude brings people together.At times, I can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, I pull it together.I am a seeker. I often find myself restless - and I have a lot of questions about life.I tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. I am most comfortable when I’m far away from home.

I am quite passionate and easily tempted. My impulses sometimes get me into trouble.I’m truly an original person. I have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for me... especially in business and academia.Some people find me to be selfish and a bit overbearing. I’m a strong person.

Cherished lessons from Mom

• My mother taught me to appreciate a Job well done.

"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside. I just finished cleaning!"

• My mother taught me about religion

" You better pray that stain will come out of the carpet."

• My mother taught me about time travel

" I you don't straighten up I'm going to knock you into the middle of the week."

• My mother taught me logic

" Because I said so, that's why."

• My mother taught me logic #2

" If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."

• My mother taught me foresight

" Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

• My mother taught me Irony

" Keep crying and I'll give you something to cry about."

• My mother taught me about the science of osmosis

" Shut your mouth and eat your dinner!"

• My mother taught me how to be a contortionist

" Will you look at the dirt on the back of your neck!"

• My mother taught me about stamina

" You'll sit there 'till all that mashed potato is finished."

• My mother taught me about the weather

" It looks as if a tornado swept to your room."

• My mother taught me how to solve physical problems

" If I yelled because I saw a meteor coming toward you, would you listen?"

• My mother taught me about hypocrisy

" if I told you once, I've told you a million times don't exaggerate!"

• My mother taught me the circle of life

" I brought you into this world, and I can take you out.

• My mother taught me about behavior medication

" Stop acting like your sister!"

• My mother taught me about envy

" There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."

• My mother taught me about anticipation

" Just wait until we get home."

• My mother taught me about the thrill of receiving

" You are going to get it when we get home."

• My mother taught me medical science

" If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to freeze that way."

• My mother taught me about thinking ahead

" If you don't pass your spelling test, you'll never get a job."

• My mother taught me humor

" When that cockroach cuts off your toes, don't come running to me.

• My mother taught me how to become an adult

" If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up.

• My mother taught me about my roots

" Do you think you were born in a barn?"

• My mother taught me about wisdom of age

" When you get to be my age. you will understand."

• And the all time favorite, My mother taught me about Justice

" One day you'll have kids and I hope they turn out just like you."